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I went back to the shores
retreated to your breast
retreated back inside this figure dripped with loneliness
These hands are paper thin this skin had its regrets
This life that's broke, my shattered lips, these sunken eyes, travelled in my smile, their filled with lies, this bloated body, these feet that tried, this tired laughter,
it fills the room
This breathe escapes me
My eyes close tight
Drowning in my thoughts
I'm drowning in my mind
And this is why
I cannot leave
I cannot die
They heard my cries
They heard my cries
And this is why
I cannot leave
I cannot die
I swear I tried
(I swallowed my pride)
Oh God I tried
(I swallowed my pride)
I cannot die
I swear I tried
(I cannot die)
And as I think, as I look back at everything I've done in my life there's not a single thing I can think of that even fucking matters
I cannot die
I swear I tried
(This life that's broke, my shattered lips, these sunken eyes, travelled in my smile, their filled with lies, this bloated body, these feet that tried, this tired laughter, it fills the room)
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I don't need you
To keep explaining why you feel this way
Your heavy handed comments are bullshit
You don't want me
To pussyfoot and dance around
These building blocks spell sin
But it's all just noise, it's all just noise
Did you go headfirst in?
If that helps you live, it helps you live
And if it helps you breathe, then that's fine with me
I can’t believe that this is happening.
I can barely hear you anymore.
You always said that were the fucking same.
I’ll wait for your jaws to clench, moving slowly towards the back of your lungs.
I’ve been wasting my days and it’s always the same.
Why did you have to go…
I’ve been talking in my sleep and they’ve been listening.
Nothing can bring you back.
Time burns slowly from the inside out,
Time burns always from the inside out.
I always see your eyes....
when....
I black out and forget my own name.
I can feel my heart stop when you look at me.
Why dont you crawl up there?
Just like your savior did?
Oh that's right,
it was all
false words
and friendships
I dont need you
When are you coming back?
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Mantis
05:01
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Nightmares, nightmares fill the room, spin it in circles
Like a crowd of laughter echoing through the halls, down the street, in my house, to my bed, across my sheets
The past has a funny way
It has a funny way of rearing its ugly head again and again but
Sometimes I think if I
I could wish it all away that I
I could be put back into my place and make some sense again but
The past has a twisted way of coming back to haunt me
She's a man eater, and this old girl has had her fill. Chewed up and spit back to the side but I can't complain much
Because x3
At least her teeth were built of velvet and lace and grace and her tongue was tied up with a ribbon and bow
I will not resist
You can hold me down but I'm not struggling
I will eat you whole
Swallow me down, down, down
I will not resist
Cut your teeth on my bones
My mouth is filling up with blood again
And spilling out and spilling through the cracks in my lips and
I'm trying to catch it all in my hands and
Put it all back in its place, goddamn you're thirsty, goddamn
My fingers shrivel up and curl inside, pointing back at a lifeless husk
I'm sweating bullets while falling down
And splitting open at the seams
The last thing I hear is the echo
Of ripping my thoughts open
A dying gasp of breathless air
A word that dances and falls down
My fingers bending back
And touching the face of God
(You have broken the hand that feeds)
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The sun it blares
Their blood is thick and browning
My heart is broken
It's literally fuckin broken
The weight of the bodies is too much
My bones bend like old wood
(weeping, hungry, tired)
HELLO?
Snot streaming from my nose
Affords my shoulder freedom
I can't feel my legs
HELLO!?
Digging through the flesh of clowns
Mouths agape in horror or stupidity or pain or
HELLO?
Snot streaming from my nose
Affords my shoulder freedom
Where are my friends
HELLO!?
Digging through the flesh of clowns
Mouths agape in horror or stupidity or pain or
Where the fuck am I?
How did I get here?
A sound close by
Clawing, squelching, clawing, squelching
The sound of liquid?
I am so thirsty
What have I done?
A rat pokes his head from the nearest dead man's asshole
It's greasy snout stretches to yawn
Snapping, jawing
It starts to speak
"Where do you think this all ends up?
When do you think that you'll give up?"
My eyes say that it's soon
That time is a weeping wound
Here I am, I'm proof
The bodies start to churn in their pile
What did I do to become one of them?
Extract the fingernails
Replace your teeth
And chew your way out
Cuticle smile
The rat cannot free his hind legs
He starts to laugh and leaves them behind
Joining the feast
The comedy of violence in boiling heat
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I'm solving riddles in the dark sometimes
I concede it all
All the dirt in my veins
My wires are crossed
When my mouth opens up
I sleep when I breathe
and I breathe when I sink and it all feels backwards
It all feels like the lock didn't click
My tongue gets crossed
And sometimes the thoughts get bent
Like someone's pulling the strings
But the strings are so tied up
So tangled up in the trees we used to make houses of
Turn the lights down now
Deep breathes, deep breathes please
I've worn the mask of quiet man, of a reckless man, of a dead man
I've worn the mask of a disguising man, of a filthy man, of a sinful man
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6. |
Alpaca Lips (Interlude)
00:44
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These carousel horses have the shiniest eyes, have prettiest faces around
Step right up and and try your hand, you might like your odds, you look like a gambling man
"Count your blessings" said the small man to the tall man
1, 2, 3, 4 ,5 ,6
"I can't remember the last time, but I remember the first time"
They both looked away, disappointment painted on their face
As the sun sets on the fair grounds, both men sulk and walk away
"Its been several days" x3
"I've done my time
And played by
All the rules you
Laid in front
Of me"
"We both were
Strong and
Did not
Question
Any thing
You might have done"
"She was with child, she was with child"
"You took her
By the
Hand and
Led her
To this
Life you made"
The fair grounds
Had never been
Quieter than on that day
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